Enough is ENOUGH!

Okay…

Lately I have been so down and depressed between my Dad and my Dogs and my weight not going down every single day like I expected it to and I have had enough!
I spent enough time pre op being depressed. I was depressed for a good ten years of my life, wallowing away in my own self pity and I am here to say NO MORE! I am done with the hopelessness and helplessness feelings! I am done with feeling sorry for myself and things in my life that are beyond my control and I will not let this interfere in my weight loss journey!

Ahhh….I feel like I can breathe again! I am headed back to Victoria for some much needed quality time with my folks and my babies(my dogs)…and of course the pool, the gym and the trails! I am so excited to be working out with my mama again!
I also have my first weigh in with Dr Amson on Tuesday…I am nervous. I have lost 30 pounds and I am worried he’ll think that it isn’t enough for this far along. I mean it’s only been 6 weeks tomorrow so 30 pounds shoudn’t be bad?? Thats like an average of 5 pounds a week, even though it didn’t come off like that. I lost the first 13 in the first 2 weeks. Things have been moving slow since then. I shouldn’t complain because it is going down and not up…

Of course when I was really striving to hit another weight loss goal by my Amson appointment (I wanted to lose another 8 pounds before I saw him again, bringing me into the 190′s at 199! )…but Nooooo , my body is stubborn…and I got my period. So that was f*cking fantastic. lol. Yep! I have started with some light core exercises to engage but not stress my abdominal region as I was told not to overdo the abs for 6-8 weeks.
Well my darlings I feel better…