Fat people know they are fat. Just saying.

I am annoyed, and not in a good way. In a “you- really- just- said- that?” kind of way. I just have to start out by saying

FAT PEOPLE KNOW THEY ARE FAT! Shocker- I know. Theyre might be some out there in denial as to HOW FAT they really are, but for the most part we know. I didn’t need the unintelligent little boy in grade 2 to tell me “you’re fat”. I didn’t need the gym teacher in grade 6 to tell me to “lose some weight so you can run faster”. I didn’t need the 17 year old boy to walk around and have all of his friends call me “muffin” in grade 6 through 12. To this day when one see’s me they will still call me muffin. And I didn’t need all the stares, fat jokes and constant comparisons to whales and hippos to know I am fat! Okay, so why is all of this circulating my annoyed brain at the moment??

It’s probably because of yesterday at work when one of the managers asked me “have you thought about losing weight?’ …I wanted to say “Every f*cking minute of every f*cking day” instead I said “yes” and she nodded and that was that. She has no idea that I have been exercising my ass off every single day to try and lose the pounds. She has no idea that I dieted and starved my way into anemia. She has no idea that I’m constantly thinking about how fat I have become. She has no idea how many times I go to the doctor a year for something unrelated to weight and yet weight is still the main focus. She has no idea how every time I asked a medical professional for help they shoved Canada’s Food guide at me. She has no idea that all those diets and starvation and everything did nothing but make me anemic and afraid of food. She has no idea how hard it is for me to look in a mirror. She has no idea I have waited 6 years for Gastric Bypass surgery. She has no idea I will be thinner by this time next year. She has no idea. She is ignorant. She assumes like everybody else that fat people don’t know they are fat. Newsflash…most of us fat people KNOW we are fat and probably know more about nutrition than thin people do! it’s funny theres been a lot of doctors I have seen and most of them shove canada’s food guide at me even though I have followed that to a T for most of my adult life. Plain and simple : people are ignorant. Now that I have that off my chest, I am even more determined to get thin and prove to everybody that yes I can lose the weight. I don’t care about being a size 2, I just care about how I feel on the inside and if people still have a problem with my outside then thats too damn bad. As long as I like me, I can live with how others feel.

xoxo 16 more days!