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I can’t believe how much shit I let myself put into my pouch last night.  I had the worst evening of my last 9 months.  I came home from work and instantly got angry at my husband and older son for not doing anything while they were home all day yesterday, they couldn’t even get the towels in the cupboard after they folded them, it was that bad.  Then it just went all down hill from there.  Ate my supper (1/3c quinoa and 2/3 c chicken vegetable stirfry – very healthy) and about 1 hour later I got into s/f chocolate then made some protein snicker snackers and ate about 10 little squares of those then drank a cup of coffee right away felt like shit so went to the can and put my finger down my throat and threw up about half of what I ate and even before this I tried to puke a couple of times which I did a little but not a whole lot.  I felt as guilty as hell after all this….I hope that this is not the beginning of a bad thing with eating habits and letting my emotions get to me like that… guess it was just a bad day and today is a new day to start all over again.  This action tells me that I definitely have a problem with the emotional eating…WILL IT EVER GO AWAY!! Probably not but I do need to learn to take control of it so it doesn’t get out of hand again and get me right back where I started from.

So needless to say I was at the gym again this morning trying to burn off all those unwanted calories that I put into my pouch last night, I am hoping that my efforts paid off….will also go to kickbo again at noon too.  Oh yeah and I made sure that I packed myself a very very healthy low carb lunch today….lol

Lizzette

Thanks so much for your wordsof wisdom Roxanne.  I really do appreciate it…and yes I am aware that the throwing up is not a good thing at all, to tell you the truth I am also so damn scared of gaining the weight back again, I don't ever ever want to be where I was before I had the surgery….I do feel so so much better now and I do love the way I look and the way I feel and the fact that I can exercise my heart out without out any real problems now.

Yes I will work on the emotional eating and yes I do know that it is an everyday issue that we with past obesity disease have to work at…

Thanks again, and I hope you have a great day.

Lizzette

Lizette

  I am rooting for you.  I am still pre op so I cant say I know how you feel.  However, I can imagine how scary that is.  Being scared of gaining the weight back.  Just know we support you and care.  If there is anything I can do let me know.  Even if it is just an ear to listen.  Take care of yourself.

that could get a little expensive especially if you get pissed off a lot…lol

Was going to tell you that I am coming to Victoria again on April 7th for an appt with the internist on April 8th and probably will fly back home on the 9th, we should try and meet one another this time while I am there, if you are game

Lizzette

hey Lizzette,

are you talking to me if you are yes we can meet up