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HELP, I can't seem to control my eating binges these last couple of weeks

I just don't seem to know what has gotten into my bean brain, seems like for the last couple of weeks just about every second or third day i am finding myself going off the deep end and totally out of control with closset EATING, anything that has SUGAR in it, those damn dreadful WHITE CARBS!  It isn't just one cookie or two but it is a whole slu of them and some chocolate and anything else I can seem to put into my pouche, and let me tell you it is so bad that i just seem to keep stuffing it in until I am just about doubled over in pain and shaking like a leaf…..DUMPING!!!! but it doesn't seem to make me stop……I guess it is time for me to take the 5 day pouche test and hopefully this will get me back on track and in touch with my pouche again!!!! and hopefully get those dreadful ungodlly 6 lbs that I have put on, off.  I know that I needed to gain some weight but this is not a good way to gain it and also it is really bothering me that I have done this as I know that it is not the right thing to be doing to myself.

I feel like such a hyprocrit as I say to people that I would never do that sort of thing as why would I put myself through this whole surgery thing and then turn around and gain all my weight back and not eat healthy again, and here I find myself doing just that!!!!!

Have any of you post ops out there experienced what I have been experiencing with fighting with the CARB MONSTER this way?  I am definately going to start the five day pouche test tomorrow, any pointers from any of you who have taken this test would be greatly appreciated!!!

Lizzette

thanks for the encouragement Ron, no one knows  better than myself how much I need that encouragement and also to hear that I am not the only one that has experienced this…. I know that I have done a  bad thing by over stuffing my pouche and forcing in all these bad food choices…..but like you said it doesn't do me any good to beat myself up over it as it only makes me feel more down and feel like I want to try and comfort myself with the sugar which we all know doesn't do anything but make us want more….

I have already told myself that tomorrow is a new day, i am also seriously thinking about getting the frozen cookies out of my freezer and putting them in the garbage can for the garbage man tomorrow then the temptation will definately be gone!!!!!

Lizzette

I totally get what you are saying, I use the excuse of being stressed and upset with either my husband or my older son and to justify my reasoning for getting into the sugar stuff that I know dam well isn't going to help me but it is only going to sabotage me……so now I am putting myself through sugar withdrawals……not fun at all!!!! but hey I am going to make it even if it kills me….which I know it won't!

I think where it all started for me was when my sister and brother in law both told me that I should be able to have a sugary treat and that I should be able to eat whatever I want now because I am making sure that I exercise everyday, well they maybe true to a certain degree but I think I am the one who went overboard with that advise or should I say statement…..well now it is back to the hard part of getting those 7 or 8 lbs off that I have gained, unfortunately these lbs were not gained in a healthy manner therefore they need to come off and they need to be turned into muscle or healthy lbs not BAD UGLY lbs…….

Lizzette