Have not written in a while….update on me!

Helloo Everyone!
I have not written in a long time!!! I have been so busy having a lot of fun! Well and working. I have 20 days left until the big day and I am still having to defend my decision to some people! it’s incredible! If these same people ask me once more WHY I want to have this surgery I think I am going to blow up! I understand one of them is jealous…she wishes it was her…but she’s never done anything to move in the direction to get the surgery so it is her own fault and her own problem. I can only do so much for her. I have given her Dr A’s card and told her to switch family doctors if the can’t get a referral. She has yet to do that in 6 years so I am done. I am washing my hands. I showed her a list of 75 reasons that I have for wanting this surgery and all she saw was #74 – To look and feel better in my clothing.
That was the ONLY “superficial” as she would call it, thing on my list and of course she picked that ONE thing out!!! Instead of seeing things like : To not be that fat girl that can’t breathe coming up stairs or that needs a rest after a 30 min walk uphill, or To not worry that I will get diabetes or heart disease by 30. instead of her seeing those type of things on my list she sees what she wants to see and I have decided that I am done discussing anything to do with the surgery with her.  I have washed my hands. There is only so much that I can handle or that I will handle. On the other hand, my boyfriend seems more and more at peace with this whole surgery deal. I think it’s because of how informed I have kept him about my thoughts, feelings, fears and all the prep details as well as post op life. having my Mom talk to him about how difficult it was for my Dad at first to adjust to her when she had the surgery helped as well so he knows more of what to expect the first few months. I am thinking we’ll be okay. Hes embracing the new eating patterns and I know he loves me for me and thats all I could ask him to do. My Mom is so excited everytime I phone her she asks “how many more days now???” She’s got a whole pile of clothes for me to wear after and she wants us to go on a vacation after and she’s also trying to lose more weight as well so all in all it is beneficial for everybody.
Well I should go now, I am so excited to be in the “teens” tomorrow!!

xoxo

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