Negativity and WLS

Hey Everyone!!
Well, I have decided to write on a subject that bothers me to the core! Recently I posted in the forum about my Mother in Law and her negative attitude, if you didn’t read it I’ll explain it.
She is always commenting on others she knows of that have had WLS and how it didn’t work for them and basically telling me Im crazy for doing this choice. She is overweight herself, and has zero self control when it comes to food. It drives me crazy and I just want to stand up and say “Those people are NOT me!” but because I have to see her all the time, I don’t want there to be any conflict between us as she is a very negative, unhappy person. Her attitude sometimes comes out in her son who is my boyfriend. For example last night we were watching the biggest loser finale, which of course made me cry- AGAIN! I was astounded on how awesome everybody looks and all my boyfriend could point out was their large amounts of skin and how some of them look “funny” and that you can tell that they were once fat…I was getting so angry!!! Couldn’t he see all that they have accomplished!?!?!?! I was ready to just turn it off and enjoy it by myself. I started thinking “is he going to only see negative things about me after I’ve worked my ass off and have my own transformation?” It brought up some emotions inside of me that I didn’t know I had!. I realized I felt this way because all of my life I have never felt good enough. I was never good enough for the popular kids, I was never good enough for the “hot” guy, I was never good enough for people not to do unkind things to me…I wasn’t good enough for anybody even myself. So I think somewhere inside of my mind I was thinking “am I still not going to be good enough for you when I’m thin?” And then it donned on me that I don’t need to be good enough for anybody but myself. Why was I dwelling on all of this negativity when I am doing something awesome with my life?? Why was I spending time in bed when I was supposed to be sleeping, thinking on everything that my mother in law and boyfriend had said? Negative people try to drag positive people down with them to make themselves feel better. This was something that was recently brought to my attention (you know who you are and thank you for this!) by somebody who I don’t even know! It took a stranger to open my eyes and I am very grateful for everybody’s support on here ;even though nobody knows me they are so supportive and happy for me. I am glad to have positive people in my life who I can come to for advice or even just to vent because everybody here wether they are pre-op, post op, or not even considering surgery and just trying to lose weight, we are all in the same boat! See I feel better now that I wrote all of this out! lol. I just thought I’d share where my headspace has been for a few days now and I finally snapped out of it! This morning I went to water-fit and thought about everything and as I was splashing around and breathing heavily I had my epiphany! I will dwell on negative people no longer!!! I will not be dragged down into the dark abyss with them, and I am even more determined to show all of them just what I am capable of!!! September 12th here I come!!!!!!

THANK-YOU TO EVERYBODY WHO IS HERE SUPPORTING ME!! It means more than you know xoxo!

110 Days until I’m on the table!

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