Holy Moly I have been neglecting my blog on here! I looked and I haven’t had a post since MAY! it’s now OCTOBER!
Okay, well here’s what has transcribed in my life since May.
In July I went to vegas again and I was much smaller and had a blast shopping! Unfortunately most of the things that I bought then are too big for me now as I am smaller again *which is not really unfortunate* lol. September 12th was my 1 year RNY date and I celebrated it by taking a strip tease pole dancing class…which benefited me and my hubby…hee hee. I LOVED IT! I feel so much sexier and womanly now. OH I should give you the stats…. I am down 109 pounds. I am down to 129. Wow. I never thought I’d see the 120′s! but here I am!. I have lost over 8.5 feet in inches off my body….yep. I am loving life. I am in a medical program in school and having a stressful but fun time. I am still exercising as much as I can usually 1 hour cardio and some toning stuff so about 1.5 hours 5-6 days a week. It’s a stress reliever for me for sure.
Well Thats all thats really new with me just been school, wedding planning and working out! I will write more another day as I have yet another test to study for!!!
i can hardly beleive it has been 8 months already…almost 9!! So here’s my stats.
Before surgery I was 238. I am now 151! So thats 87 pounds so far. I love the new me and I am not finished yet. I’d like to lose another 20 or so. We’ll see how it goes as I notice that even with 5 pounds off my smaller frame it makes a big difference in my clothes and my appearance. I don’t want to get too hung up on a number goal. My clothing is all so loose I love it. I have bought a few cheaper new things especially underwear and bra’s! But as for clothing I haven’t had to buy much as my Mom who has smaller clothes has given me some of hers so thankfully I’m pretty much set for now!. I have bought quite a few summer dresses as I love dresses now!!!! I would wear a dress and funky sandals everyday if work and weather permitted it!!!
Right now though I am choosing not to exercise as I am very sick. Just today my temperature was 104.6. not so good. I’m not too sure what I have, but it’s all in my chest throat nose and head…even my upper back hurts.
Well that is all for me today I am too sick to be sitting at a computer desk! lol.
I will write again soon!
Holy moly it’s been a while since I’ve blogged on here. I have been crazy busy! I have been working lots, and working out lots, and doing wedding planning and house maintenance, omigod I’m tired from writing all of that! Through all of the things that have come up lately the biggest thing is my perspective on size. more »
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I have got my sexy back!
okay, okay this won’t be a blog where I tell you all how sexy I am…trust me on that. This is more of a blog where I compare where I was to where I am now. 5 months ago (almost 6) I had RNY. I was 238lbs and MISERABLE. I hated myself and I in no way, shape or form felt sexy. In fact…I was starting to lose whatever sexy feelings I even had. It sucked big time. I’m not where I want to be just yet, but I am so close I can feel it. I can taste it. It’s a goal of mine. On one of my weight loss programs I was on (Herbal Magic) I got down to 156 pounds. I remember this number because it was what my Dad weighed and I could brag that I was as thin as he. I was only that weight for 2 months though as the pills that that diet centre puts you on gave me IBS and I had to stop taking them. Right now, I am sitting at 167 (as of 2 days ago) so I could be less by now. So I only have about 10-11 pounds until I hit 156. Now here’s my goal. I want to be under 156. I want to go into that uncharted territory that I haven’t yet got to experience for myself. I don’t want to have a number goal…but unfortunately I do. it has always been a dream of mine to see the 120′s. We’ll see.
This summer we’re(fiancee and i) heading back to Vegas! We booked our trip for mid July which is the HOTTEST vegas ever gets! This should be fun! Sun, gambling, margarita’s and night life you’d only dream of?? Oh yes, I can’t wait.
Okay, back to my original thought. I never thought I would actually FEEL sexy. But I do. I can put on some skinny jeans or leggings and throw on a top and feel like I rock it. Men notice too. I get checked out a lot. I joke with my fiancee that men are finding me attractive so he better watch out!
I was hoping to work out like crazy because I wanted to try and hit that goal of 156 by my birthday which is coming up near the end of march, but since I am sick I don’t think I should be working out like crazy. I have been through the sickness which isn’t that good for my body so I am going to rest on the days I am not working and relax a bit. For all I know the pressure of wanting to be a certain size could be whats making me sick!
I have been thinking a lot as well about my future. I can’t wait to start school again. I have been missing it. Even though I have the travelling bug and am liking this working thing I have going on…I really want a job where I am making good money. I want to make more than minimum wage. I also want to get my DL. I need it. I have the urge to get it now whereas I didn’t before. I guess I am all grow’d up?? Geeze what some confidence can do to a person!! Yeesh…we’ll see what I turn into in these next few months!!!!